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2005-01-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya aidiladha to all muslims out there..

todae supposedly to slaughter kambing.. but kambing lambat arrive.. wad man.. anyway it's not like i care.. i cannot eat kambing anyway.. i will have a terrible headache after eating it.. haish.. anyway.. went to wak house this morning and yayi was still complaining about the itchiness cos my mummy forgot to buy the bedak. haish. anyway watched meet the fockers there (again, i watched it before already even though NC-16 but i have the disc so what the hell) and then when baba left and the guys went for sembahyang jumaat, watched part 2 of puteri gunung ledang. there are 3 disc in all. yesterday night malam raya watched part 1 and i fell asleep. this time i did it again. i feel asleep. sheeeesh.

so tired lah.. ill end here .. oh and i am going to change my template soon lah. this is soo ugly. damn. hahah

2005-01-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

sheesh.. whad`s wrong wid dish peeps dish daes.. ignorin` mie to de core.. freakin` assholes... grr.. dey dunno wad it`sh lyk without suhaila.. yesh, they don`t. obvioushly i mean.. i AM going to commit suicide.. just lemme go to hell alrightsh.. shince no one ebber caresh about mie lyk my family and my darling do. gawd. my friendsh dont even care about mie. AND I DON`T GIVE TWO HOOTS ABOUT THEM, EITHER. just kish muh ass.. you ass hooooole.

alright, caught the Meet The Fockers.. yeah.. my mum bought the darn cd.. it`s NC-16.. but do i LOOK like i CARE? i don`t. hahah! so damn cuuuute! the baby`s first word was assshoooole. taught by the aunt`s fiance!! he tot the baby couldn`t talk! so he said ass hooole with the facial expressions and all! hahahs! hah! damn, it was one heck of a cuuute baby. but no way. my darling ish cuuuter. hahahs!

i am anti muhd shahmilzah. i am anti yeow katrina. i am anti nuryl farisya. i am anti 6 bougainvillea. i am anti kim wakerman. anti whoever who isnt talking to me. they don`t know what they`re mishin here man.

i dont give two hoots, just gimme ur fruet.

2005-01-14T15:36:00.000+08:00

`If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday
If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday
I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday
If you leave if you leave
Don't look back
Don't look back`
-by Nada Surf

can we be like this forever? will we ever last? can we fulfill your little sister's dream? to be together forever? i am not sure. if you are really sincere towards me, i'm sure we can make it forever. i love you my almighty. never leave me. if you think we won't work out, tell me now, and i`ll change to suit you. no matter what happens, i will love you for life and my heart will forever be with you and that feeling of mine towards you will never change. let's keep this spark burning till we die. i want us to be FOREVER. it's not like forever has a meaning but i'm truly in love with you. no one can ever replace you in my heart. i hope you understand that i just need you, your life, your soul, you love, your everything. i wish that it could belong to me and no one else. i just need you and your beautiful soul to be mine forever. be mine from now till forever. to you, happy birthday syg.. it's tmr ryte.. yep.. happy birthdae.. i love youuuu.... muahhhhh.
hugs and kisses`

2005-01-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

school sucks to the freakin core man... starting to hate it.. it`s like torture from hell.. you get what i mean.. it`s so freakin` me out especially when you`re best friend is backstabbing you, or rather pretendin` infront of her other best friend.

let me explain further. or rather in more detail.
NURYL!!! she`s killing me!!! what`s her problem??? infront of katrina or katrina`s good friend, she`ll be like not talking to me.. then after skool.. she will call me and talk to me.. what`s her problem?!?!?!?! i mean!! i am her best friend, aren`t i? she only comes to me when she has problems. do you call that a sincere best friend? i don`t think so. she is my best friend, ditto elynoor (eleanor), ditto faisyah (sometymes lah).. OKAY?! nuryl is seriously putting me in a dilemma. she`s killing me. she`s like giving me torture in hell. that`s what i meant like school being torture from hell when you`re good friend is like this towards you.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
whatever.
whatever.
WhAtEvEr!!!!

2005-01-11T17:29:00.000+08:00

err.. crap lah nowadays.. so stressed to tha core... no free tym at all sei.. whad man.. grr... my schoolbag is getting heavier each day.. and my shoulder is starting to hurt.. and ermmm.. homework load is like banyak gilurr.. and ah i don't get enough slp.. dun seem to be slpin well at all... 've been tired these few days with all these things caught up in muh lyfe.. yeppsies.

it feels lyk as tho i gt strucked by lightning wen elynoor sms-ed me. my dearest's adek.. she seems to HATE me but LIKE me at the same tyme.. weird or whatttt?!?.. harharharx. yeps. i am officially her only friend whom she have. well, that's what she claims. she wants us to be like okay and berbaik antara satu samer laen.. cos she is lonely.. cos nt many frens lah.. she dun own much.. maybe haf lah bt maybe they hate her or smth.. well.. she's okay i guess.. nv met her before whatt.. pretty or not, skinny or not, that i am not shure.. cos i don't really care. i will like her and be her 'guiding' light always. i will help her okay.. i won't be that heartless. i am starting to be so nice to her eventhough she salah sangka me and tot me as a well different person throughout. i'm glad she noes who the real suhaila is. i am not those who step minah jambu and never will. i don't even look like a minah!! i look more like a chinese!! hahaha!! okay whatever. at least i am caring, [[yes i do care]], haha whatever. i hope elynoor will lyk me for hu i am lahx... she dun even noe me whatt.. only noe me as danial's dearest!! haha!! whatever.. lyke as tho i've ever met her before. well, i think i did. i met so many fengshan pri schoolgirls. but i dunno which one is elynoor lah. okay whatever.

i love it when lyfe becomes so swit n pure.. haha.. dun really noe hw to describe.. bt isn't it just amazing when someone hu hates you, starts to lyk you?? laa laa laa.. i will adore elynoor lyk as though she's my lil sis.. dat's cos i don't have one. i'm the darling youngest in tha family. and definitely the noisiest!!!~ haha. okay.... yes...

i love you. i love you. i love you. and i thought over and over. i really, really do. i think about you over and over again and nothing seems to take my eyes of you, you, you. it's only you whom i adore the most. whom i love among all. [excluding blood relatns] will love you forever and ever and ever and ever. i really do. i love you, and i thought it through, i really do, and nothing can take you away from me. please don't leave me once again. i have raised my h0pes up high for you my dearest. hahaha.

2005-01-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

isn't it stupid.. katrina hates me of the reason i tell her to 'shut up' whenever she wants to talk. like since when did i ever did that? i would just stop talking myself and let her talk. so what's her bloody the fa-arkin business. trying to put words in my mouth. gawd, i hate her too. who the fa-arkin hell does she think she is? george bush's daughter? lee kuan yew's daughter? if she is, then i am goh chok tong's granddaughter and he's my grandfather. hmph. she is such a sackar, and a suck up, don't really know how to stand up for her own rights and do things herself, how lazy. and she is so proud and snobbish. since primary 1 i knew her. she wasn't like that. but as each moment passes by, she change and change. primary 1 she was this cute bubbly girl who was very friendly towards everyone. very kind. primary 2 she changed a little. she became more open. primary 3 and 4 she was my best friend with nuryl. she was very kind indeed, very sincere and nice. but primary 5.. things started to change.. she started hating me to the core.. [hey, i hate her too].. she is such a backstabber. gawd. primary 6, things became from bad to worse. like practically she don't even let nuryl talk to me. doesn't nuryl have her own rights and know how to stand up for herself? i am sure she can do it. by herself. but whatever katrina or her friends excluding me, rizal, faisyah, sabrina, danial or whoever, ask her to do something, she does as she is told. pathetic, isn't it?

who cares.
i don't.

2005-01-04T17:49:00.000+08:00

my life is like shit. shit. shit. shit. shit.
everything seems to be topsy-turvy ever since he didn't talk to me.. cos he is 'stressed' and can't 'talk'.. maybe the vocal cords got disabled or something.. nevermind lah... i let him settle down first...

first day of school was just as bad as it can be. same teacher, she discipline mistress. lucky classes like 6bo, to have michelle tan. i want rita teo!! she is the best teacher in the whole wide world!!! i swear if she teach me i can get an A* for maths and science!! ah!! english, don't say ah.. maybe B or C.. and malay gotta be A* also. i want an A* for malay!!!! hahah. as long as i can get into tkgs is fine.. or rgs if possible.. but i want to skool wid him.. mebbe temasek or tanjong katong sec.. hehks.

second day seems to be getting slightly better. serene and me are talking to each other again. i guess we have to forget the past, and bury the hatchet. and think of the future. wad happen among us was not entirely her fault. i don't blame her at all. except i hate my sitting arrangement. i mean it's ok. sitting with sherlynn and marilyn. but.. i am sitting right inside, with 2 people on my left. and table slanted to the left so that we're facing the whiteboard. haha. so it's very hard for me to get off my seat. hahahaha! okie. and my malay class sitting arrangement. i have to sit next to tricia. she doesn't like me at all. not an itsy weeny bit. she hates me to the core. she's not that bad anyway...

i hate katrina.
stupid 2 faced bitch.
pretender.
suck-up.
proud.
snobby.
freaking idiot.
I-D-I-O-T spells idiot.
loser.
L-O-S-E-R spells idiot.

2004-12-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

to my dear ex darling*

want you to know i miss you, miss you soooooooooooo!
want you to also know i love you, love you soooooooooo!
want you to know i am sorry, very sorry.
sorry for not being a good stead to you,
and not taking another step further in this relationship that has already ended,
i wanted to take the step further,
but you left me for someone else instead,
i am sure the girl's name is amira (or spelled ameera/amirah)..
very sure, indeed.
thanks for all the love,
the care,
the standing up for,
the help,
the everything,
you did and do and gave me.
i am grateful to be once with you.
i wish one day we could be back together again.
together as one.
will miss you so.
till the end.
goodbye, my dear.

2004-12-26T18:16:00.000+08:00

actually, i don't want mr idris's 1st son. i want his 3rd son, the 4th child. i mean.. this is weird.. but what can i do...? eventhough he dun love me animore.. i dun kare.. i want him, him, him, him and just him, get me.. heh? no one can ever stop me i tell you. i am sick and tired already, thinking of him him him him him even though we are not together anymore. whei, why is my life like this? argh.. i still love him, though. farkin hell.

this is to u muhd danial ahqim bin idris..... u pontential hrtbreaker.. y did i even lyk u in tha ferst plc...

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew, I needed you so bad

You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling, I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry, cause you're not here with me
cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If you could see me now
You would know just how,
How hard I try
Not to wonder why

I wish I could believe in something new
Oh, please somebody tell me it's not true(oh)
I'll never be over you

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling, I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry, cause you're not here with me
cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If I could have you back tomorrow
If I could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see, you still love me

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry, cause you're not here with me
cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again.....

i love you, how come you don't love me anymore?
i shouldn't have trusted you.
i thought you wouldn't break my heart,
but you already did.
don't you dare come back crying to me, begging me to take you back,
i'm not interested, my dear.
i accepted you, you accepted me.
now, i'm rejecting you.
i'm better off dead..

2004-12-25T16:24:00.000+08:00

i want you! i want you! i want you! i want you! whatever your name is! i just want you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! i don't know your name, though! but i want you! you! you! you! and only you! you! you! you! you! you! you!!!!!! *to be more specific, the person is.. kak elyana, abg hazik, danial and eleanor's oldest brother!!!!! haha!! but he so old, what the hell, as old as my brother, who cares.

i don't need you! i don't need you! i don't need you! danial! i don't need you! i just don't! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! you! i don't want you anymore! you! you! you! you! you! *to be more specific, the person is muhd danial ahqim bin idris, from fengshan primary, aged 11, aged 12 on the 15th of january 2005.

i need someone who will love me forever.
cherish me forever.
like me forever.
care for me forever.
someone who won't leave me.
never again.
i'm sick and tired.

i think i'm falling for you! you! you! you! in a bad case of love... love! love! love.. i think i'm falling for you.. youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...... hahahahaaaaaaa...

i love you, the 1st son of mr idris. hahahahakzzzzzzzzz. =PP ;)

2004-12-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no!!

my life is great, how worser can it get? very worse indeed. i mean like.. how could he treat me like this? am i dirt to you? something you can get anytime? hm? let's see about it, sweetie. i'm not yours anymore. never in my life. never will be. never. never. never. i tell you. never. i don't give a damn (like you always say) to what you're gonna do to me.. i don't even know you, do i? tell me, who are YOU to me? YOU are just a potential heartbreaker. you break my heart everytime. EVERYTIME. haven't you got sick of doing this to me? we are different. it was like as though i was made for you but now i don't feel like it. i mean ever since we met, it's like fate has brought us together. i think you and me will go and dream on.

okay.. yayness. i feel so great. how great can it get..? hmph? tell me, darling. haha.

okay.. calculated my estimated aggregate. 238!! whei!! i qualify to go into tanjong katong secondary. yuck. with him and the other him? no-no. no thanks. you guys can go ahead. i'm not interested. ok.. i don't want to be with you and you to be in the same school.

anyway, i am switching my placing of schools.
1st choice: tanjong katong secondary school.
2nd choice: tanjong katong girls' school.
3rd choice: cedar girls' school.
4th choice: temasek secondary school.
5th choice: paya lebar methodist girls' school.
6th choice: geylang methodist secondary school.

2004-12-23T15:55:00.000+08:00

okay. i'm depressed right now. i feel like cryin', but i just can't seem to shed the damn tears. how could life be so like this one? well. what can i say. being in love is wrong, not being in love is wrong. why did it become such a mess? i just need you and your beautiful soul to be with me forever, darling. why. why...!! how could you be like this? it happens between them, not us, so why are you ignoring me? weird, or what?!

rizal. danial. rizal. danial. rizal. danial. gawd i'm sick...

it's not like they can read this or what right. but i just write what i want to say.

rizal. nuryl saw it with her own damn eyes, and for the cheek of you to lie to her. she saw YOU and A GIRL. TOGETHER.
YOU and a GIRL with EACH OTHER and were TOGETHER.
and to think, you would still go for Nuryl, after what you did? heh? well, i don't think she can accept you again. Nuryl and me, have already fallen for so many of your tricks. so what do you want now? you want us to be fooled, correct? hello young mister, we are TOTALLY NOT DUMB. i doubt your IQ is higher than nuryl's. wait. your's shud be higher than hers. still no matter what, i don't give a damn what you want to do next, cause as you always say.. 'i don't give a damn'.. it's not only YOU who don't give a damn in this situation, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN, TOO!!!!! but, right now, i'm quite piss. YOU and YOUR DEAR BEST FRIEND plus YOUR MEMBERS.. just watch what i will do next, okay? ME and MY DARLING BEST FRIEND don't really bother NOW cause we KNOW what you are TRYING to do. well, well. WE CAN'T BE FOOLED. even though i am NOT that experienced, I KNOW how to handle relationship problems, even though danial is my first one. Don't care about qayyum. nothing really ever happened between us. okkk? so if you want to say sorry, hey darling.. look here... "sorri naik lorri".. kalau kau lebih kayer.. "sori naik ferrari".. and kalau kau nak tangkap ikan.. "sorri makan ikan pari".. okay? i'm not interested anymore. NOT INTERESTED. aku dah SERIK, tahu tak. S - E - R - I - K !! tu eja dapat serik. pertama, danial ngan bdk chij tu. secondly, danial ngan shikin. skarang u pulak. u ngan bdk bawah blok... "oooooh rizallllllllllllllllll" tk heran sia. heran tk heran, goyang tk goyang, busuk2 nanti i tendang... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

danial. ni plak utk you. umm.. i dah tk ley tahan kau tahu tk. slalu da jadi gini. kau tahu tak. aper aku nak buat lepas nie..? lagi baik kan kalau aku tkd dlm hidupmu yg sungguh bahagia ini... eish. teruk sia korang. geramnyerrrrrr. aku bley bawak diri, tau. kau slalu kater 3 perkataan tu.. benar ker yg kau betul2 cintaiku..?........ aper yg kau pernah buat utk buktikan yg kau mmg2 cintaiku.. hmm..? aku btul2 itu pat kau.. tapi you... ah.. saje terpulangkan pader tuhan ah! atau hamba kau! whatever. i don't give a damn . i don't . i really don't. i nak quit grp tu, i pasti i nak. tapi saje korang laki2 halang i. you slalu pujuk i. dah pujuk i stay ah. skarang mmg korang pasti tkd aper nk uat skarang. itu sumer terpulang pader you ngan boys you. i ngan girl i.. sajer ader 1. tu pon matair rizal dulu. nuryl. skarang kan rizal dah aderk pompan lain. tapi you, aku tak tahu. aku tak akan tahu. aku tahu. okie? saje aku tunggu la langit utk runtuh. tunggu sampai bumi jatuh. tunggu pade maser nie utk seseorang utk bilang aku hal yang sebenarnya. i'm not interested, sayang. okay. damn...... arhhhhhhh...

as you guys can c.. i'm kinda pissed ryte now... whei.. why is lyf like this. i'm totally sick. lost for words.

2004-12-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

nothing much to do nowadays. well as you can see my template begins with "dear santa".. ahahkz. well, santa, how come you own a computer?! haha.

okayy. christmas is this friday. gawd, why do i even care? it's not like i celebrate it or whatsoever right. hmm. wonder what santa is giving me! heehehheeeeeeeee.. okayyy.

today is an ordinary school holiday day.. nothing else to do.. except... wake up, eat, play computer, revise abit, hog the phone, play the damn piano, play computer, chat online, update my blog, check friendster, watch tv, eat, sleep. hahaha~

what am i to say now?? okay.. hmm. don't know ley. ahahkz. kkz. bye now lah. got nothing to update abt anyway. except i can't wait to go to schoolll~~~

2004-12-21T10:49:00.000+08:00

last night celebrated yayi's birthday.. wasn't bad at all urh.. wahahahkz.. ate at chai chee seafood restaurant... ate chicken rice.. ahahkz... with dishes lurhx... quite nice.. too bad wak and wak muni couldn't join us as they go tahlil... remember? wak sukimah passed away on saturday.. kkz.. hm back to the celebration.. kz.. we had dinner there basically.. and umm.. yeahh.. ahahkz.. can you believe it! the waiter was an angmoh but his name is ahmad! that is hilarious.. wakaka... okay.. mmmmmm... after dinner.. my dad sent my cousins and yayi home.. 10 people packed like sardines in a 7-seater.. haha.. 2 infront, 4 in the middle and 4 at the back.. kz.. ahahkz.. whatever.

hmm.. thank gawd tmr got no piano! wheeeeeeeeee..... hate piano man... why does it even exist? i like playing the piano when i'm troubled or depressed or being problematic.. haha.. but besides that, it's a total no-no for me ay.. haha.. stupid darren lurh.. now i have to go piano at 8!! that means i have to wake up an hour earlier!! wahlao!! that ass.. ewwwww yuckks. total yuckness. haha. okay.

what else can i say? oh yeah. i'm totally not over this damn budak stephiphop you noe.. that noriff danial ashriq guy.... gawd he sucks totally.. wakaka... sorry those who have major crush on him but well IT'S A FACT here.. =PPP!!! kz.. oh yeah? and those budak step basically. they are total yuckness!!!!!! what on earth do you wanna step when you know you can't be what you're stepping for? true right? it sucks totally alright. here there got so many step minah. oh wait. am i talking about myself? the step minah. ahaha no lah. i am not even a minah. whatthehell, owh and i DO NOT step okayyyyyyy.. hhhahahhaaaaaaaaaaaa... kz.

that's all for now darlings. wakaka. bye.....

2004-12-20T10:38:00.000+08:00

(this post was meant to be typed on the 19th of december, 2004)

aite..... today abg is cumin bak frm his damn seminar!! yayness(not)*... wahahahkz.. went to giant supermarket to buy some stuffs.. uh huh.. den went to the airport canteen for brkfast.. i scalded muh hand there.. cos i went to buy my dad and my drink.. den my dad wanted hot no sugar soyabean and i had the cold grassjelly drink.. urh i was damn stupid not to take the tray!! ahahkz.. so i scalded my hand and wasn't able to hoon my spoon properly.. my hand was red for so long.. wahaha okayy.

oh yeah.. did i tell you? my mum gave me back my phone! total yayness! woooooohoooooo.. wakaka damn i'm crazy! finally i can function.. hehe.. yeahh.. okay..

this particular day is my parent's anniversary! whoot.. went to celebrate the occasion at a hotel.. went to eat buffet.. whoi damn expensive ley.. children (thank gawd i'm below 12!!) is $21.. adults (above 12) is $42.. wtf xia.. haha i ate all i can.. came back i was so bloated until i cudn't slp well.. wahahahakz.. aite..

was supposed to celebrate yayi's 82nd (i think) birthday.. but he came out and told my aunt (cos they're livin in tha same house, and also his son).. and said "hari ni bukan saya punya birthday".. so we postponed it tmr.. my uncle said it was best hosting it today cos if do it tmr everyone working so busy.. ahahkz.. kkz.. dat's all for now..

adios amigos aku nak berambus...... ciao... peace out guys!

2004-12-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

hey.. wak sukimah passed away today. i think she is my aunt. aha. i don't even noe. i ever heard of her but never really met before. ahahkz. yeah.

tomorrow is my parent's wedding anniversary! whoo~ ahahkz. yesh. can't really buy anything cos it's quite late already urh.. don't even noe what to buy for them. ahahkz. yeash. wakaka.. not shure how long they're married. whatthehell. it shud be 24 or 23 years. not that sure. heh..

lepak at wak's house jus now while wak rashid, wak muni, yayi, mama and papa went melawat and followed the takziah go to the kubur to tanam.. sat at their house quite long ay.. even got time to sleep.. sleep.. eat lunch.. watch Lord Of The Rings Return Of The King.. go to kedai.. ahahkz.. very long ey.. heh.. umm.. LOTR was quite boring sia.. not really interested in this kinda stuff.. i'm into the movies which are like teenagers' movies.. and those romantic shit. haha. i mean what the hell wud i want to watch a movie which i am so uninterested in? hmm? ehe.

playing pool with shahmilzah right now. was playing checkers with qayyum but he ended up not moving a single piece at a point of time. what the crap siak. kkz. gtg now.. bye..

2004-12-17T19:59:00.000+08:00

heyhey.. ummm.. i haf smth to say urh.. huebarh hu got muh hp number.. dun kol or sms me k.. my mum has muh fone urh.. my bill went up yeah.. so my mum confiscated it.. arghh.. wtf xia... ahh.. i am so angry with her.. what's her problem man? it's just 50 bucks.. i mean my siblings is like 100+ she nebarh confiscate.. wtf man.. so unfair.. i mean.. like hey it wasn't me hu called out ryte..?.. it wuz muh fwenz hu called me and sms-ed me!! wtf.. and it wud be damn rude if i dun reply their sms or pick their kol ryte..?.. ahhh but hu cares niwae.. i haf dah computer and dah home phone.. yeah..

went to johor this afternoon.. bought muh dad's medicine and a couple more stuffs urh.. yeah.. didn't really wanna go but just followed since i was starving to death.. wakaka.. umm.. yerp. haha. there was a traffic jam on the way back.. so like my dad drove to tha 2nd link... sadly, it was jammed tooo... :P loserz!! haha.. yeah.. then back in singapore immigration.. it was even worst.. 4 passports also the immigrant took so long to stamp and check the thing.. haha.. den got one part where the police officers check the car.. haha the officer checked muh dad's car and there was food inside.. so he said "fooood. yeahh"... haha.. yep.

kz.. urhh.. yeah that's all for now arh.. haha.. kkz.. bye...

2004-12-16T11:21:00.000+08:00

today is 16th December 2004 (like OBVIOUSLY).. urm.. today is a special day to one of my friends... it's her birthday!!!!!!!!! whooot.... i would like to wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND, ERA NURAMALINA!!!!! yay...!! happy 11th birthday...! may all your dreams and wishes come true.. and i hope your day is filled with lots of presents and showered with love!! haha!! i give you late birthday present urh.. cos now we don't really meet.. just wait until madrasah reopens, ok...

ummm.. having such an itchy eye right now.. been rubbing and rubbing it.. urhhh.. gonna get sore eye soon.. nooooo...... nebarh.. okay.. yarh..

signing off.

2004-12-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

havin a tiff wif shahmilzah ryte now.. that bloody jackass.. son of a gun/bitch... urgh.. he is really making my blood boil... gawd if i cud find him.. i am SO gonna kill him man... yerp.. anyway not been having good times lately.... urhm.. i am always sho bored... arhh.. actually.. ya. gt nth to do..... has just been listening to music to like make my day.. currently.. nt really doin anythin.. aite... kz.. dunno what to say.. oh yerh, just nw went to muh sch to get my hm,t bk dun haf!!!!! arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... i m going to kill dat fukin block hu bought tha 2nd copy..... nak step em1 or whatt........!!!!!! kz kz .. bye now.. oh and urh..
happy birthday to my friend era nuramalina!!!!!! happy birthday!!!!!

2004-12-15T07:40:00.000+08:00

wtf.. it's 7.45am now.. in 15mins i wud be at muh piano teacher's haus for lesson.. i haf to go the 8am one thanks to Darren cos the week before last wk.. he agreed to Mrs Quak(my teacher) that he wud come at 8.. but i think he came late as he overslept.. so Mrs Quak asked me to come at 8 and he.. 9am.. well.. if i didn't suddenly wake up just like that.. i wud get scolded by Mrs Quak.. wakaka... ya.. i don't really haf much to say.. except.. maryam wud be cumin online tomorrow i tink.. ya.. ummm... 1 thing i haf to say.. i totally hate piano.. i dun even noe y there's a MUST in taking it in my mum's dictionary... she says nowadays the classified ads.. many music schools are looking for music teachers.. blah blah blah... oh and did i tell u smth? last nite wen i went for dinner wif muh family.. my dad met his friend.. and u noe what?.. he said "wah your daughter.. carbon copy of you!!" funni (not) sia.. ya i admit i look a bit lyk muh dad.. bt sumtimes i dun really look like any of my parents.. haha.. oh yerp.. i'm cumin online after my piano lessons which is abt 9.30am lyk dat.. huahuahua.. kz.. bbz.. i dun wanna b late for piano.. =))

2004-12-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

wtf wtf wtf... muh fwen's cousins feika and a'at is like tryin to find fault wif me.. well.. i helped muh fwen in her template aite.. i noe she changed it bt well, i tot feika helped her or smth.. u noe.. den urm.. in her tagboard feika wrote "era you wasted my time".. i mean i helped era edit the coding all dat n it turned out weird.. kz.. so i tot feika meant lyk era wasted her time coz i tot she made the template for her!! so.. aat and feika called me loser.. well u guys can call me what you like alright? i'm used to it already.. so what if i suck or i don't? all humans are different.. ok? i am sorry for everything ok? so stop disturbing me can..?

went to tampines mall n century square wif muh mum juz nw.. had brunch at long john's silver.. yar.. den wen to look see look see lurh.. then really shop coz urh after christmas will shurely get sale.. bt wen to isetan to buy pants fr muh sister.. yerp.. aite..

owh yer feika.. my guy didnt left me.. ok? well i heard stuffs from people but not him.. he didn't know anything about it.. it was just a misunderstanding between us.. i talked to him bout it, and he explained everything.. it happened that shikin is his cousin not someone he likes.

nothing much to do thz days sia.. i can't wait fr sch to reopen sho dat i can lepak wid muh members.. wakkkakaka.. aite.. tc..

2004-12-12T11:13:00.000+08:00

yeah.. umm..... nth much to update abt nowadays.. yerh.. i shall just update bt yesterdae... sho irritatin lurh...

went out in the afternoon.. supposedly to go lunch at parkway parade.. which we did.. and we're supposed to go shopping.. to bhuy my sister's office dress coz nw she's werkin for muh dad's company in the mean time.. coz urh.. she wuns to go poly.. so she's hopin to get that 3-month thingay.. uh yep.
had lunch at swensens'.. uhm.. yar.. den uh muh dad went to giant to buy some shirts and ah muh mum followed me n muh sis to Sembawang (a music shop, duhhh).. yeah.. i bought my alicia key's Diary Of Alicia Keys already!!!!! whooooooot.... it ish sho nize!!! wakakaka.. niwae.. still savin up to bhuy lots of stuffs.. haf to get era and danial a burfdae prezzie and urh..... i wun my lindsay lohan and jojo album!!!!! i am currently broke. i mean not broke lurh. only got $2 something. whuddehell..
i shudn't spend sho much.. damn lurh..
oh yeah, after that.. went to some places yepyep.. kz.. came home.. took a shower..
by the time i came out of the loo it was like almost 7pm..

so played x-box while waitin fr the singapore idol final showdown encore.. i didn't get to watch the live telecast coz i wuz at genting..... wahhhhhkz... at least there was an ENCORE!! if not urh.. i dunno whud happen xhia.. owh taufik!!! wahhh!! taufik and sylvester looked at me!!! ehe perasan shei.. i mean lyk he whuz lookin at the camera whud.. so if without lookin at thuh camera he lookin at me!! kz whudevuh.. owh muh gawd.. the medley of songs ryte.. ohhhhh my oh my oh my.. jerry! what happen sia!!! u sucked totally... well at least gt smth dat didnt change.. it is tha fact that he is still smilin no matter whud!! huahua.. aite.. uhm.. he still looks the same.. so innocent lyk jefry.. (speakin bt jefry.. he still sucks.. hate him.. aha..) kz.. well maia maia maia.. tk berubah2 yer.. still dressin up lyk a slut.. she wunnuh be prostitute iszit.. aish..
the song dick lee sang whuz shoooooo cute!!!
maia baby and her baby... wakaka that wuz so funnieh!!
i mean the whole of the idol paradise song whuz soo nice n funnieh!! haha..
it proofs how talented (and crazy) dick ish.. haha..

aite went for dinner at Sri Ayu's for the 3rd time in a row.. sho borin sia.. i ate mee hongkong thz tym.. except it whuz tremendously HORRIBLE... so YUCK YUCK YUCK... it whuz beehoon.. which i sho hate it.. haha.. aite..
that's all fr now.. yeh.. update tonight or whudever kz.

2004-12-10T14:57:00.000+08:00

damn.. i mean lyk there'z oni a couple of days till i get muh hp bill.. fuk fuk fuk.. i scared it's gonna be high.. my bill is less than 40, must nt exceed 35.. so if i exceed dat amt.. noooooo!! my mum goin to take bak my phone! *sniffs*... well.. wud can i do..?.. i wud definitely get it bak ryte (ehek, perasan sei).. i cud always beg my sistuh to ushe her fone.. yepyep.. or i cud save money and tell muh mum to gimme bak my phone n i'll pay for the bills??? aha, well i hope it cud work.. bsides!! i'm not broke.. well muh money in my bank.. juz a couple of 10 dollar notes.. not a couple.. only 2.. and some 2 dollar notes in it.. nt bad wud.. can pay my bill for 1 month.. ahax. funni...

i've decided.. wether eleanor lyks it or not.... i'm nt ending the relationship.. it's shad if the ghurl is the one.. well.. hu gifs a damn if i'm a ghurl or not.. i dun wunna b dumped, too!!! well, the ghurl does it, she bcums so emotional (n so does the boi), bt if the boi is the one hu does it, he goes so emotional (n so does the ghurl).. so wudder heck luh!! aaaaaaahhaaaaa....

still hoverin' lyk mad todae.. gt nth much to do.. except i haf loads of tuition hmwk dat wuz given to me after my exams were over, date due in january!!! arghhh!! lazy wun to do sei.. coz it's SCIENCE. primary 4 one.. wud do i remember in pri 4?? nth!! coz well my teacher teach crap.. n den in de middle she wud shay "wud bullshit u all givin muh, i teach u all nebah listen....."... lyk i gif a damn, nOoOoO!!! yeah...

my shistuh shucks.
my bruhder shucks.
owh man..
if oni i had a younger sibling hu i can share my shecwets. bt i wun it to be a ghurl!!
well, fat hope for dat. i'm the youngest oweadi, and i doubt my parents want to do "it".. bsides if they do.. the youngest n the 2nd youngest wud b 12 yrs apart!!!!! wahhhhhh!!! k.. wudevuh..

i'm goin to start to wear muh specs seriously frm now on..... gotta lower my esticmatism degree.. huahua.. aite.. oh yer, can anyone puhlezz tag or smth.. my tagboard sunyi sei...
kluh dat's all for now. till then. buhbuhbuhbyeeeeeeeeeeeeee........ =)

2004-12-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

hw orin.. nth tuu do.. *yawns*... hoverin lyk crazy... urghhhhhhh.......!!!!!!!!!!!

aww man, nw i'm gettin psycho..
i dun tink there's anithin i can do to make eleanor lyk me without me breaking wid danial.. argh..!! damn it.. oh yer, kak elyana's voice is soooo lembut... waaaaaaaah..... praises for her to haf such a nice voice......!!! whoooooot. damn i'm crazy. wud am i going to do.?..
argh.. toodootoo.. lame aite.. aha.

i don't know. i cud juz contineu de relationship without givin a damn bt eleanor.. bt i haf to gif a damn bt her.. coz i care alright.. i love her a bit, love her as much as i love my friends. bt.. she hates me.. so wud am i going to doo........?............ argh...

and anyway, 25 days to school reopen. i can survive.
well, that's because even if it's a school holiday OR not, i am still STRESSED, havin to do assessment bks, havin to tink wud i'm supposed to do, and havin to tink abt my dumb piano!! uh!! piano sux by the way.. juz luurve playin it wen i am troubled. waha.

yeahh. went to school juz nw to buy my PE shirt coz well my skool happily went to changed the PE attired. oh and bought a couple of books which cudn't be found at popular. yeh. hmm... yeah. alright. alright. alright.
dropped by the library.. was so troubled, i guess. i walked into a couple of cute little kiddies..

that's all for now.
mishin yuu ghurl friends out there.....
mish yer lots.
luurbbe yuu!!~
(i am nt a lesbian, aite)

2004-12-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

took some quizzes. yeh, decided to post it on my blog. aha.

You Are the Girl Next Door!

You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry.Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love.But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it!You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life.

What Kind of Girl Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You are 27% Flirt

How Much of a Flirt Are You? Take This Quiz :-)
Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Your Scent is Glow

Fresh, sexy, and clean.
You're real, intimate, and exciting.
Your lush sensuality appeals to men...
And you're as sexy as Jennifer Lopez.
Power scents: Orange flower, grapefruit, and citrus.

What Scent Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

yeh.. that's all the quizzes i took. try them if u wish!!~

2004-12-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

eyyz.. feelin' delighted now..... well, that's because i got the truth alreadyy...
shikin is his cousin. waha, that's funny.. thanks jefry for those lies, yeah, it ain't funny, aite.

well... it's not lyk as tho jefry is gonna read thz, bt i haf smth to sae bt him.
HE IS FAKE.
HE IS A LIAR.
HE IS REALLY FAKE.
TOTALLY.
WAHAHA.
there you got it. some innocent looking idiot hu is tremendously FAKE....

aite. had piano thz morning. ahh fuk darren uh... bcoz of him, nxt wk i haf to go for lessons at 8am. damn him uh. i haf to wake up at 7.15am. splendid. thanks a lot. thanks a great bunch. argh. anyway, piano was ok, i guess. mrs quak had flu and she said it's because the place where she went for her holiday ((beijing)) was too cold. soo rich also cannot afford to buy some more warmers is it? oh mah gawd. that's weird. yep. did theory, played the scales&appergios, exam pieces and some other music. yepp.

head down to my daddie's office after my sista came home frm piano... i didnt wanna sit at home wid muh irritatin brother. whooooooooooooooooot he's going to camp thz saturday!! yayyyyy.. alright. went tah my daddie's office to play the computer and ah did some pri 4 science work. had to complete all my p4 assessment books as in 27 days, i wud be p6 and i haf to concentrate as i'm goin to take psle. yeah..... checked my friendster, used windows messenger tuu chat for awhile.. den went for lunch and marine parade. ah i was walking then i felt my phone vibratin.. it wuz dani.. aha haahhahaaaaaaa..... i snapped at him fr no reason, he muz be so confused.. huhahahauhaaha.. i said "kan kau dah dek shikin, pi uh kacau dier" and then i hang up.. i feel so guilty... well........ he gt sms me, i replied bk ler, den kak elyana replied.. well... wud can i say..?... hm, oh yeah i dun hate eleanor... i luurve her.. aha yeh ryte. love is love luh, but i'm not ready to love her as my own sister. i can just treat her like one in the mean time, ok.. yeh..

quite sleepy thz few days... n also, seems to be havin no appetite to eat.. wanna eat as feelin' hungry bt uh can't finish eating. juz after a few feeds, feelin lyk wunna puke.. hw cum..?..

27 days to the day i see muh dahlings.
take care aite...
luurve yuh.
oh and special luurve n care to adik eleanor. aha.
did i juz call her "adik"...?...
yes i did... adik tu adik ler... no harm..
juz gonna treat her as best as i can...

2004-12-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

ouh man.. thz iz the 3rd time i'm updating my blog..... i'm feelin soo bluu, desperate, depressed and hrtbroken.. aarghhh... if oni i had thoze charms dat can hook up anione.. yeh, some ppl gt say i'm jambu.. bt i dun tink so.. if i m jambu.. y did dd left me for shikin..?.....

CHIJ GIRLS SUCKS TO THE DAMN CORE.
ESPECIALLY SHIKIN.
AND HER GANG.
OH YER, AND JEFRY'S SISTER.
I JUST HATE EVERYONE.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING.
BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE POURING OUT ALL MY FEELINGS.
BUT HOW CAN I?? (SORRY IF ALL THIS IS IN CAPITAL LETTERS)
AHHHHH HOW..?..
I AM NOT SPECIAL.
I AM NOT PRETTY.
I AM NOT SMART.
I AM NOT BRILLIANT.
I AM NOT THOSE SORT.
I DON'T HAVE THOSE CHARMS THAT I CAN HOOK ANY GUY.
WHY AM I LIKE THIS?
HAVEN'T I BEEN BROKEN BEFORE?
WAAHHHHHHHKZZ............................
I FEEL LIKE JUMPING DOWN THE BUILDING.
TEMPTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE.
ARGHHH.....

2004-12-06T15:16:00.000+08:00

i hate shikin.... oh yeh not only her...
nuryl, toooooooooooooooooooo........
shikin coz whyyyyyy.. *got luh i dun wan to post it*...
and nuryl coz... she hid lots of things frm me.. yehh..
oh yeh, i hate fengshan girls, uhhh chij girls toooooooooooooooooooo......
bloody bi-atches..... hate them foreverrrrrrrrrrr..... i dun care.............
oh yer, dun play "su" "su" wid me i dun care......
i want to die right thz minute.....
anione care to kill me????????

2004-12-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

whooot..... i cut my hair.. ah, makes no difference.. coz i cut not like so much, i cut not even 1 inch! aha.. i just made my hair one-length.. and thinner it a bit coz uh my hair so damn thick.. yeah..
hmm... my "beauty" sleep was ruined thanx to my sis... uh yeah.. bt i'm psyched up for thz brand new day.. hm, wonder why i'm always looking forward to the next day.. is there something wrong with me or something? i just seem to be overwhelmed by what has happened to me.. i m supposed to feel SAD over it, bt instead i am feeling DELIGHTED!!!!!! owh gawd, i'm crazy, that's fer sure... hm yeah.
hey diyana if u're reading thz, i haf a message fer you:
aku benci kau, psl kau sanggup buat aku hingga begini.. tkdah kau serik atas aper yang kau telah buat? huh?? bdk chij tu.. hm, aku dahk tahu tentang dorang yer, bukan saje perhubungan korang, tetapi aku tahu aper "material" dorang arh.. aku bilang kau, nanti dorang dpt org yg lebih bagus, dorang tendang kau uh.. mereka cam gitu.. so biler aper2 terjadi, aku pon dah tk nk uh.. aku akan beri sumer peluang pat kau, kau arrange sendiri, yer.. and thz iz for you... weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore? now who's crying, desiring to come back to me?
niwae.. hm... life has brought me to where i wanted.. ahhh.. i m not takin her back as my best friend for all i give a damn..... she dun care ryte, neither do i... i'm fed up already with all her tricks, i can't believe i fell for it..
watched shark tale juz now on my DVD player.. borrowed it frm my cuzzin.. hm, the show is so lame... yeah... that's all for now.
i'll update soon.

2004-12-05T14:14:00.000+08:00

SINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!

haven't i been single all thz years?

did i marry or wudsoever?

aha! bt I AM SINGLE!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!

(= huggies and kishes from me to myself =)

i luurve all of yuu...

except some...

yey....

"i'm single.. right now, that's how i wanna be..."

-taken from Natasha's "Single" from the album "UNWRITTEN"-

2004-12-04T16:03:00.000+08:00

yeah i wud like to say thanks to 3 people hu made my day as i wuz feelin down.. yeh, to all my step siblings: maryam, nasri and syakirah.. thanks yeah for cheering me up.. i shud noe life is worth it, boys ain't? ha, no luh, some boys are worth livin for, some are not.. kz...
yeah, gt nth much to sae except ma mum called me "kerbau giler" coz i wuz screamin wen she wunted to slp for a while.. ehe.. k ler..
these days arh.. i m always playin "Project Gotham Racing 2" on my x-box.. ehe.. so fun .. play for my sister.. ha!ha, k not funny..
oh yea, please, please make my tagboard noisy arhhh.. my tagboard sunyi jek.. tk bez seii..
yeh i shud update you on this:
I AM SICK!!!!!!
SLIGHT FEVER.
COUGH.
RUNNY NOSE.
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha, dunno y so happi.. bt i went to spread germs at ma sis n ma bro.. happy recovery k!! ehe.. shud b eating medicines, takin care of maself, bt gt no medi hw to eat.. slenger sei.. mlz nk pi polyclinic or pi jumper doktor.. ehe..
chij girl exist.
ah medey medey.
they exist.
i'm doomed forever.
thanks for makin ma life like this.
the end.

2004-12-03T16:09:00.000+08:00

damn, i m so fustrated. thanks a lot to this certain someone hu can so damn easily forget tha date!! how cud you? argh, so you mean all thz time, u dun gif a shit abt thz? ha? damn you luh, i shudn't gif a damn animore, do i? u are so damn desperate, ain't you? u juz wun me. ryte?
u said u ask for forgiveness, huh! since when?? tell me..!! u asked jefry to help you, ain't i right? i have damn good memory, and i still remember every single shit that happened, aitez. i still remember ok... how cud u do thz to me..... how...... how... how...
1st u dun let me quit, and now... u even forgot the date!! *sniffs*..
wakz...... i shud juz shut up now, right... u dun even care abt me!!!!!!!!!!! i m sick, and do you even KNOW? nOoOoOo!!!!!!! do u even care?? nOoOoO!! wud kind of stead are you??? arghh.. do u even love me????? noOoOOOoOO!!! who do you love?? that chij girl. and of course! jefry told me you are just pretending to like her! but i dun believe? do i believe??? nOoOoO~~ arghhh.. i will hate u forever if u dun do anything bt this.. i can't take it anymore, darlin!! arghhhhh!!!!!! damn it ler.

2004-12-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

eyy.. i m finally back.. argh 2 days without the computer, argh and my beloved handphone.. yeh the house phone and mah luurved luurved ones lyk mah daahlings.. hekz.. mish dem lotz.. lotz.. waha.. went to genting highlands for a 3 day 2 night holiday.. damn boring uhh.. hekz..
haha..went on the tuesday.. hmm.. came bk today, yehh..
1st day nth much uh.. reach there 5pm liddat lur.. coz went to kajang first to eat lunch.. yepyep. oh yer, and bought some stuffs there, too.. reach genting.. check-in, relek, watch tv.. den go dinner.. n sleep luh. there wuz only a queen size-d bed, so my parents slept on it.. n besides the point there was only one room, and one bathroom. pathetic i tell you..
i slept in the living room with my siblings.. i on the couch.. and my siblings on tha floor.. hm, wid sleepin bag uh.. we brought it along.. yeh.. hmm.. now my shoulder hurtz coz i slept like as tho im that flexible to sleep on a 2-seater couch.. hekz..
second day.. went out earli abit luh abt 9 liddat.. wen fer brkfast.. den went up to de amusement park, which was not amusing, coz it wuz de indoor one. we cudn't go to the outdoor one coz it wuz damn foggy and misty.. yeh.. my parents didnt buy the tickets, dey bought fr me n my siblings.. arh.. we went on thz so called "euro express" which wuz rather a mini roller-coaster, which got no effect. haha, i haf no freakin idea whyy the people are screaming.. screaming for life, i guess.. the ride wusn't dat scary.. i took it twice coz my mum wuz complaining she bought the ticket for me for nothing. yeh. my siblings went to play the adult bumper car, which i cud also play, coz my height wuz lyk above the red line they stick on, but i hate bumper cars, they're the stupidest "amuse-ing" thing in the whole wide world.. yeh, took thz dumb thing, almost alike to what is there in the sg science centre.. u noe dat moving thingy n inside it's like a short show and the thingy will move.?.. yeh, bt thz time it is smth called crash in your seat. yeh it wuz abt some car - racin thing.. xcept i didnt look at the screen, it wuz way scarier den i tot.. argh.. yeh i wuz starin at my bro n holding the handle damn tightly. yepp.. took thz reindeer ride also.. nt real reindeer luh.. it wuz juz u sit in the thing and it goes one round n u cum bk.. yeh, oh smth similar to dah gondola.. yeh.. the gondola i sat in wid ma siblings wus green and it wus a dragon, how interesting. NOT.. hm.. watched dz chinese acrobat while i wuz in the gondola.. i looked down frm above, quite interesting huh.. diz boy hu wuz standing on this wood thingy, somethin lyk cardboard with thz rolling thingy beneath, it wuz fer him to balance.. den he had to balance a couple of bowls on his head.. it wuz quite a lot, all stacked upp.. amazing huh how he can do it.. and we all don't.. hekz..
k luh.. today came bk.. woke up damn earli.. bt 6.45am liddat.. bt i pretended to slp, if nt i had to go bath n clear de stuffs first.. ehe..
k luh.
whooooooooooottt...... taufik won singapore idol!!!!!!!! ah!! i luurbe yuu taufik!! hahaha.. damn, y is taufik so cute and hott...? hhhhhhahahaha... sly sucks forever.. he's not singapore idol, he's the fool-iest idiot i've ever came across.. haha.. he's de fool in the whole world.. yeppp.. if the world idol will be held, i will juz pray fr taufik to win.. yeh, bt mayb it wud b racialist.. so he wudn't win in dat case.. yepp. yehhh..
i going to kill myself soon. soon enough. just wait and see.

2004-11-28T13:31:00.000+08:00

whooooooot~ yepp. today is the release of madrasah results... hmm? why am i so happy..?.. it's just madrasah results, not english school results, or psle results or wud, huh... nevermind.. hmm.. i got 8th place in class which has 27 students. woooooot!!!!!! wahakz.

akhlak not bad uh.. 48/50.. kencang uh!! haha.. hmm.. others i forgot.. oh yer arab i JUST pass.. so sad.. nevermind.. my arab is always just pass, so wudde hell luh. hm yep.

have been challenging my sister in PGR on the x-box.. haha.. fair game uh. she win she win. i lose i lose. i win i win. she lose she lose. so not much of a big deal luh... yep. (=

not been updating much.. coz dun haf much to tell yuu anyway.. oh yer.. i am going holiday next week.. 30th november till 2nd december.. uh .. damn i'm going to miss the singapore idol finals!! wakzzzzz...... :'(... nevermind.. hmm.. just someone tell me k, hu's the winner!! i hope it's going to be TAUFIK!!!!!!! aahhhhhhhh !!!!

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IT WILL BE TWEETY BIRD!!!!!

IF YOU SUPPORT TAUFIK BATISAH.....
KEEP CALLING AND VOTE FOR HIM, KZ??

oh gawd, i'm crazy. nevermind. that's all for now.
mish ya daahlings..

2004-11-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

had a long day today.. damn it uhz.. my mum made me wake up so damn earlyy.. just to go to myy dad's oFfice.. arghh.. wud did i do there..?.. just use thz black marker and cancel some stuff.. and drink ice lemon tea.. go lunch.. come back.. go DBS bank.. go home.. so boringg uhr..
i wuz cancelling some documents with the black marker wen suddenlyy my phone rang.. hm.. it says "Danial Ahqim calling...".. so i just pick up and we talked for 2 minutes and a few seconds.. hm... he asked me if i wanna go jln rayer wid him n i tink de guy members.. but i let him dwn.. i didn't wanna go.. hm.. coz i scared to tell my mum den i going jln rayer at de last minute.
hahhahahaaha.
thanks, nuryl for getting me addicted to this dressing up of doll online thingyy.. i am so in luurbe wid it.. haha.. yepp. it's really interesting~.. i'll gif u de url in my chatterbox, yepp.
hmm... i still haven't got over the 2nd "scandal" of which my fcukin bez fren havin a crush on my bf... hm, fcuk her laa...
nevermind.
hm, byez.

wednesdays is the day i hate.

2004-11-24T13:06:00.000+08:00

gawd... todae... i feel so gawd damn irritated luhhh... my frucked up piano teacher made me sit at her haus for lesson frem 9am to 12pm.. so irritating la.. ferst wuz nt dat bad.. played the piano pieces, exam pieces, scales, czerny and the appergios. then.. it wuz bad. i had to do theory.. sickening.
I HATE THEORIES!
uhrgz. i purposely do almost everything wrongly.. how'd i know...?.. she ask me to write the notes.. but her instructions were unclear.. she said dunno wud key signatures.. so i wrote the key signatures, she scolded me... damn frustrating luhz.. arghhhhhh..
i wuz so tired.. and probably, my brain wuzn't functioning. my brain had nv functioned during piano lessons. piano lessons is something i hate also. argh..
geram nyerr...
tkp luhz..
my piano teacher iz damn irritating uhz... i am so frustrated + irritated + tired. yepp. can't she see it's a school holiday? i shud be relaxing, not.. stressed up. got school, no school, doesn't make a difference, anyway. i'm still stressed, no matter what.
freakkkkkk.

dat'z it, juz wait fer de nxt entry, hm.. bbz.

feelin' broken.

2004-11-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

i'm feelin broken. shattered. sad. depressed. mournful.
my own best friend is being a betrayer. anyway, she has never been my best friend. she was only my close friend. she likes my *aderlah*.. hw cld she..?.. tak serik2 lagi kerz? pi sini, pi saner.. slalu flirt ngan budak laki.. mestinyer biler dak kahwin... mesti suami tak suker nye... she can't be a playghurl. playghurl are such bitches.

my mum is being... naggy thz few days.. keep nagging and shouting.. bingit uhz.. i feel so... irritated everytime.. i always want to be alone. in peace and harmony. i alwayz either hog der phone/computer or blast de music on ma sister's radio.. haha, too bad.

i mish all my frenz... i will oni c dem on 04012004.. so long more.. i m so bored at home... sometimes, i juz can't do what i want to do.... i have to tidy my room (yuckk..), help my mum.. or fold the clothes.. irritating man.. and i have to wake up early. why can't i sleep in? and wake up at 12pm? why can't i?? arghh....

i finally bought my Natasha Beddingfield's Unwritten and Avril Lavigne's Under My Skin album... wahahaha.. at least i have 2 more cds which i can play on the player over, and over agn.. harhar... my sista bought Simple Plan's Still Not Getting Any.. so, it is 3 cds.. harharhar.. wahhahaha.. ok. nemind, i am crazy. as usual.

bye nwz.

mishing u frenz..

2004-11-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

waahooo~ oh wait, wrong wrong.. it's booooohoooooo~ i mish ma frenz... i mean, only some of them... hmm.. nuryl especially.. waha my best friend.. yeh ryte.. can't wait to c her nxt yr.. wwahaha.. not funny. not laughing matter. crazee la me.. hm.. oh yeh, include natasha and danial.. yep, mish dem a lotz.. wahahaha..

i can't believe school year is finally over. yepyep. i wanna go school! and i don't wanna go school! i wanna go coz there's nuryl~ i don't wanna go coz i dun wanna some betrayer hu'z fcuking bicth.. n someone elze.. whom i hate lots. lots. lots. uhhhhhghhhhhz..... i am suppose to forgive them during the dumb thanksgiving liturgy. i m suppose to be thankful for everything. even the dumb betrayers. yekz.

todae.. went jln raye wid ma uncle's family.. hm, wahlaw.. every haus mkn siakk.. i bet i m so fat now.. better go jogging soon.. uh, must lose all da fats on me. i wanna be skinny. yeh, skinny. i tell you, i won't be able to fit in ma pinafore nxt yr. yeh ryte. i m not dat fat laaa...

i can't wait to meet my friends. i can't wait to own that Avril Lavigne's Under My Skin Album. i can't wait to go watch Incredibles with my sister. yeh.
nitez.. gtg.. haha.. k, bye..

singapore idol

2004-11-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

whoooooooot........... taufik is in the grand finals!!!!! yeahhhhhh babbeyyyyy...

all the dialings and the calls made have finally paid off. i mean not yet la. still have to vote for Taufik to be the singapore idol... but yeahhhhhhhh!!!!! he is top 2.. ehekz...
i lurve yooooo taufik!!!!! (and also got laaaaa...) no need to be jealous llaaa.. i am sooo happy!
yaaaoooooooohhoooooooooooo!!!!! uh huh. uh huh. uh huh. TAUFIK IS IN! IN! IN! IN! splendid.

sylvester also not that bad la.. taufik vs. sylvester.. hu gonna win? TAUFIK! aha, cam btol jek.. kesiannye si olinda.. ehe.. she tak tukar jek frem de beginning.. asyek baju pat dlm, jacket pat luar, kasot ngan sluar pngjg putehh.. tkd berubah siakkk..

i da giler.. ehekz. i am HAPPY that taufik is in!~ yahoooooooo!!
k la.. junior secretary which iz me (ceh ceh, junior sehhh) kene type lotsa thingz fer ma dad.. byez..

honoured and happy.

2004-11-18T15:55:00.000+08:00

todae.. scari sia.. hm.. kena go on stage 2 times... TWO! i tell you, T-W-O.. two!!!!!!!!!!! no one told me that i was receiving Best In Subject Award besides STEP award. i mean, nobody told me. and this teacher said "Suhaila from 5 Allamanda, can you please come up here and take your attendance?" then i was like haven't i already took my attendance...? so i just stood up and went to Mrs See... den i was like whoa.. another award.. ehekz.. at least i m famous (cehceh.. famous ke..?..).. haha..

i was sooooo scared... haha.. i bet i looked funny on stage.. i was so nervous, sampai nak bow pon salah.. hahakz... ehhhhhhehehe.. but at least they pronounced my name correctly! WoOoOoO~.. haha.. so damn nervous sia.. i was scared also.. but at least i got a trophy for the ferst time in ma life!! even my name was printed on it.. haha.. so it's mine, not yours. don't you dare take it away from me... congratulations, suhaila! (cheyyyy,.. congrats sendiri seh..).. haha...

saw danial juz now.. he kinda shocked to see me, i think.. coz when i saw him.. i was playing wid ma trophy.. swinging it around.. he saw faisyah ferst.. but he normal jek.. but when he turned to see me, hiz jaw dropped.. chey... i chantek sangat ke..? haha, i not chantek la.. maryam lagi chantek.. haha..

so aniwae, i feel very honoured. thanks to ma teachers hu had educated me... until this far.. haha.. not pure em1 but standard VERY GOOD sehhhhh.... perasan.. haha, but really, it was in my record book... so pathetic, i only got one band 1... haha, stupid la me.. i not that bright.. other people are WAY brighter than me..

kkz. bye..

exciting and splendid.

2004-11-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

eyz.... todae so tiring... hm.. yeah, i bet i stinked a lot just now.. i mean, very stinky.. i sweat-ed alot... ehekz... maryam jambu uhkz... i mean, well, at least she's way prettier than i am.. aha.. raudhah.. hmm... i dunno how to say... she looks... fine.... hm, let me think..... ok... cantik also.. i think.. i dunno how to explain. hahakz.

hm.. i went jln wid 10 people, 11 including me. let me think. out of da 10, i only know 3 of them.. de rest all.. aru je mit.. hm, i dun really know their names.. aisyah (or however u spell it), firdaus, ali, raflee or is it rafee/rafi (i don't know..), hisyam or is it hasyim?, hmm.. lemme think.. de rest i dunno.. raf n qay so short... hm, and qay said i cudn't run. idiot. i was wearing heels. how to run?! if low platform, of couse i can run. hehekz.

i m so tired, exhausted and lethargic... my leg hurtz... but hey, i did enjoy myself a lot. alright. tataz.

see you!

2004-11-17T10:00:00.000+08:00

eyyozz... today i am going jalan raye wid maryam, raudhah, qay, raf.. hmm and got a lot more, i dunno hu.. ehekz..

i can't wait to meet maryam and raudhah. i think they wld be way prettier than i m.. coz by wud qay said.. "if my frenz sees u, maybe dey wld barf".. obviously, you know what.. i find myself ugly. very ugly. damn ugly. but heyy, i'm 210% prettier than my bro's gf, even ma mum said so. yeah, i suppose.. i look like a female nerd with specs on. hm.. my sis wun tell me wether i look better wid specs or not.

i can't wait to meet you maryam. i can't wait to meet you raudhah. i can't wait to meet both of you. i am soo looking forward to this jalan raya. hm. i guess you ghurlz could be loads of fun! but i am surely, am scared to talk to you guyz! i'll pick up ma courage and talk to yoo~ i hope so.

cya~

sac idol

2004-11-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

eyozz... hm, todae gi skola, orin sia... let's see.. we had SAC IDOL in skool. yep. final 5. and da final round. hm, ever wondered hu became the SAC IDOL? i'll tell you every single detail. from A to Z. haha.

k, mornin went ta skool.. hm, 2 hrs. ya. 9.45am-10am all da crap happened .. it's assembly time.. such a havoc.. yar.. "in da name of da father, and of da son and of da holy blah blah blah"... hm, and finally, it's showdown, babbeyy!!!~ SAC IDOL rawkz - NOT! hehekz.

hm, de finalists are Vanessa Lee (5 Allamanda), Abelle Wee (5 Daisy), Cheyenne Phillips(5 Daisy), Jayne Rozario (3 Daisy) and Pearle Wee (3 Allamanda)... hm, so lame lah. Vanessa Lee sang I Have A Dream by Abba, Abelle Wee sang Angels by Robbie Williams, Cheyenne Phillips sang dis dumb song i dun even know the title, but i know it's by The Tokens.., Jayne Rozario brought the christmas fever in to the skoolhall wid Jingle Bell Rocks, and Pearle Wee sang I Wanna Be Like You by i don't know who. haha.
Poor thin', Abelle broke down.. Hm, she wasn't feeling well...or maybe, stage fright. Vanessa wore dis thingy, a white tube dress, and this red thing over.. she looked like she was performin in the chinese opera. haha. Pearle was so hiao.. i don't like her at all. so boastful and proud. Right, kimmy?! yeahh.. i don't even know her, so what the hell lah.

But before i go on, the judges are to be introduced. We have 2 guests judge from Mediacorp.. and dat iz Evelyn, or acted as Melissa, and Caroline, or acted as Kim, from Lightyears. Kinda cool. i like wud evelyn wore. so.. sweet-lookin.. i lyk her hairstyle too. so punky and.. hm, sassy... the judges from SACP are Ms Phyllis Cheong and Ms Veron Yap... hmm...

and now, lemme present... da SAC Idol 2004... for the AM session.. it is MS TERI YEO!!!!!!! haha. and for the PM session... it is MS PEARLE WEE!!!!!!!!~ wooo hoo..... teri sang Hot Stuff. cool. her outfit was so extremely COOL!~ so, punk? yeah, i tink dat's da word.

i like the AM session SAC IDOL 2004.. but i don't like the PM session SAC IDOL... so HIAO!! her whole class practically hates her.

don't mezz wid me``

2004-11-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

guess wud? ma dumb forkin idiotic skoolfrenz r being a pain. dorang yang plan nak pi jln raye months-months ago, and now all of them are backing out. i did not plan it, i just agreed. so now, everyone iz not coming!! only me. me. me. i mean i asked ezzah to follow, she gonna call me back soon. i hope it is a yes. natasha said she cld come, too. oh ditto nuryl. but nuryl and her transport problems.. tak tau naek bus nye orang.. ehekz.. sori uh nuryl.. but really. i do hope you can follow me pi jln raye... naek bus. learn, nuryl! LEARN! ehe..so now, don't ever miss with me you arseholes. i hate this ok. da plan abeh back out. shit u guyz lah.

damn uh.. i mizz my dear lil bez fwen.. diyana... ahhhhh...... i mizz her..... wakkkz...... *sobs*........ damn it lah.. where on earth iz she??? let's c... n nuryl misses her dear lil bez fwen... riyana... too... i tink... i mean, i guess so..... yeppz....

i m so bored. ditto me. ditto me. ditto me. yar, the only person u haf to ditto, is..... ME! yehehekz.. ouhhhhhhkz lahz..... taz.....

morning~

2004-11-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

eyz, morning everyonez...hmm.. i m juz lyk so bored... i mean like i'm online every single day. for like 1 to 2 hours. can you believe it?? no, you can't... ehehehekz...

can u believe it yesterday boxhead came 2 ma hauz..last nite..and syafiq wuz such an ass. nak jeling.. i jeling bk uhz.. at least syafiqah smiled at me.. so i smile bk lahz.. and i wonder, wud on earth wuz kak lini wearing?! u want to know? this see-thru thing, blue-coloured.. and a black bra. i mean, can't she wear a spaggethi-strapped inside? at least, more decent. haha. ok. and she looks like pontianak. wear black eye shadow, her face white2.. i tink put foundation or wud lah.. and her hair... so long and straight!!!!! and it's black, dyed brown, highlighted light brown. yepp. crappp... and kak lini and syafiqah kept looking at da hamster.. and boxhead wuz like.. so weird.. he want around and.. LOOK at my house.. and he gaf me $5 duit raye.. hm, thoughtful. crap lah.

anyway, i cannot go jln raye so soon. i only going wid ma frenz.. on the 17th wit Maryam, Qayyum, Rafi n i dun-noe-hu.. Qayyum said dere were 6 people.. rafi, maryam, raudhah, qayyum, me and aiiesyah.. and maryam said only got 5.. i told ma mum got 7... aiyohz.. nvm lah.. i can eat da extra food she cooks.. ehe.. on the 18th going wid ma skoolfrenz, wina, nuryl, natasha and wina bringin her cuzin from indonesia along.. kewl...

i m getting a prize.. for best improvement in class. yay! but i'm scared. i got stage fright. i must go on stage, take prize, then go to the other side of the stage, and stand there and wait there, for the other 7 people..

kkz.. buhbyez..

pagi ari raye...

2004-11-14T18:09:00.000+08:00

eyz... i tink ma computer sumthin wrong.. u noe da music playin on ma blog...? on my comp, can only hear the beginning.. hmm... i tink my computer went crazy all of a sudden, just like me! ehekz....

aniwae, todae tak jln much uh.. juz to rumah nenek n rumah yayi (which iz also my wak'z house)... suprisingly, ma nenek gaf me $50.. last yr, wuz lyk.. only $5 fer me.. and $10 fer my siblingz coz they are older... anyway, she dah kaye pe... dah kaut harta.. tak lah... probably she juz love 3 of us so dearly until want to gif uz so much money.. aha.. like real...

baba, wak roziah and their 7 kidz came 2 our house juz now.. azat, azirah and azrin played wit da hamsterz.. but azrin stopped 2 use ma comp to check hiz mail, play fifa n warcraft.. abang azhari wuz playin x-box wit ma bro.. kak azurah wuz sitting at the dining table wit baba, wak roziah, ma dad n ma mum, eating goodies while chatting.. hmm.. me, kak azzah and azian wuz juz watching, i guezz.. kak aza, zyan n me wuz playin wit da piano for a while, den kak aza sat wit azrin at de comp, n me n azian went outside to the lawn to play hamsterz with azat n zirah... yeah..

i edited ma template agn.. i didna noe wud i edit la, but yar..

aizz.. slamat ari rayez, AGAIN... mane my duit raye????? ehe.. muz gif me tau... if not.. i will b BROKE!!!!!! yeah.. k lah.. byez..

slamat ari rayezz..

2004-11-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

slamat ari rayez.. maaf zahir dan batin... ehehkz.. hmm.. smoga salah dan silap dpt dipinta.. uhm, dan juga harap silaturrahim dpt berterusan selame2nye..

ye.. hmm.. so at my house.. got nothing much la.. juz kueh makmur, kueh tat, chocolate chip cookies, muruku n marble cake... i tink my aunt gonna gif some crackers uh.. i dun care.. as long as edible i want to eat... lepas puase wud... so i want to eat, eat, eat...!!!!! no lah, later i sooo fat.. must watch what i eat.. ahaha.. can always eat, then lose it, right?? aha, but i m not going to be aneroxic. ok??? okay..

so now i m sooo crazy, don't know why. probably excited besok raye.. merepekz siak.. nevermind...

tataz...

that bitch.

2004-11-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

some people in this werld are such arseholes. a pain in the you-know-where. i shall hate them forever. just this certain someone i hate. she goes by the name...... *guess*.... ok.... so damn irritating lahx. mesti gi lang seluruh dunier tentang aku ngan *adelah*... merepekz siak.. because of her.. i got scolding by M.R.. shit her lahx. dah lah step-cool, pastu, such a suck-up. abeh ingat dier pandai sangat. gi MAMPUS lahx!

she iz soo god-damn irritating. she thinks she is such a good ghurl but after all, she is... such a "goody-goody two shoes" , step cool, cerek, rase chantek sangat, gemok, suck-up, and many more. so this are the few reasons why i hate her. i wish she could just go and die....

tataz.